In 2016 there was a day I was on the phone with my mom in a public place with tears running down my face. Fear came on me and darkness overwhelmed my entire being. I felt trapped and at the mercy of everything evil. At that moment God seemed at a far distance or nowhere at all.
I walked out of the courthouse and to a bench so I can sit and wait for my lawyer. The judge had requested a private meeting with the attorneys and I was anxiously waiting. I waited ALL day in the courtroom and by the time my case was to be heard, we were a few short minutes from the court to close. The few minutes I had before the judge was extremely unpleasant. The questions that were being asked seemed as though lies were believed. The judge had spent the whole day (which I witness) dealing with case after case. By the time my case came before her, it was clear she didn’t have the patience to deal with it. However, something moved her to speak with the lawyers privately and come to her decision.
As I walked out I called my mom. The anger I felt was intense. It wasn’t really anger, it was frustration. It was disappointment. I knew the truth. How could manipulation and lies have so much power? How would the truth ever win if people who don’t know the history believe the lies? I felt powerless. I felt like I was bringing a water gun to a war. My mom was trying to make me feel better and keep me calm – at least until my lawyer walked out of that courtroom. I don’t remember exactly what my mom said but I remember saying something like “How can you say that? Evil is winning! Lies are winning! Over and over again. Even allowing for time to reveal the truth isn’t working.” I’m sure I said more than that, but it was said loudly as I sat outside the courthouse with tears running down my face.
My lawyer was taking long and I was worried I was waiting in the wrong place. With as much as I had been in court, you begin to meet all the lawyers. They see you all the time and you see them. You learn their names and I got to see how they did their work. I saw a lawyer I knew was friends with my lawyer and asked her if I was waiting in the right place. She confirmed I was waiting in the right place and mentioned that my lawyer was still in with the judge. She added some words of comfort, and coming from a lawyer who had heard my case on numerous occasions was comforting.
Like this moment, I had many others. Sadly, with each occasion my hope in light overcoming darkness, truth overcoming lies, and good overcoming evil was diminishing. So much so that I did reach a point where I questioned if God was real. It was for a brief moment, but the doubt was very real.
But SUDDENLY, one day God met me in my kitchen.
That story and testimony are for another day, but once I turned my life back to God and knew His heart towards me, I began to believe and to declare. It truly was amazing to witness how quickly good overcame evil because I began to believe in Him, in His promises, and declare them in prayer. Not plead, not beg, but declare.
Let me share some of the truths and promises that I witnessed come to pass.
I am the Light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the Light of life.”
Jesus (John 8:12)
The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
The Lord is my light and my salvation – whom shall I fear? The Lord is the defense of my life – Whom shall I dread?
In the last verse, David was reminding his soul who God is. If we keep reading, David shares how he dealt with and overcame the fear.
When evildoers came upon me to devour my flesh, my adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell. Though a host encamp against me, my heart will not fear; Though war rise against me, in spite of this I shall be CONFIDENT.
One thing I have asked from the Lord, that I shall seek: That I may DWELL in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to BEHOLD the beauty of the Lord and to MEDITATE in His temple.
For in the day of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle; In the secret place of His tent He will hide me; He will lift me up on a rock.
And now my head will be lifted up above my enemies around me, and I will OFFER in His tent SACRIFICES with SHOUTS OF JOY; I will sing, yes, I will sing PRAISES TO THE LORD.
David didn’t allow the fear of darkness overcome him. He was confident. He lived with the Lord. He looked upon and meditated on Him. He gave the Lord what he had, and in sacrifice, he lifted up shouts of joy and praises to the Lord. Not because it’s what he had, but because He knew the Lord was worthy.
David knew that he could trust God. He knew that the Lord would protect him and shield him. David knew that the Lord would lift him up. Not because of all the things that David did, but because of God’s heart towards David. All the things David did wasn’t to earn the Lord’s protection, but it was because of it. He may not have been seeing it in the moment. It’s clear that he was feeling fear, but he reminded himself of who the Lord is.
The Lord is the Light of the world;
And when the Light shines in the darkness,
the darkness cannot overcome it.
So, in the end, what I thought was a battle, wasn’t a battle with an undetermined outcome. Was there a battle? Yes, yes there was. Darkness was trying to overcome light. Lies were attempting to overcome truth. Evil wanted to defeat good. But that doesn’t mean they will succeed. The TRUTH and REALITY are that they have ALREADY BEEN DEFEATED.
JESUS HAS OVERCOME…and continues to in your life.
You don’t have to fight for victory. Stand in it! Jesus already overcame.
The enemy will bring the battle to cause you to doubt this truth. He wanted to try and overcome you. But, for those who are in Christ – He can’t. Christ has already overcome. You just abide in the Almighty – in confidence.
Jesus IS King. He reigns and rules! He has the final word. Allow the Lord to lift you up on that rock.